If you could see in to the future
Would you do it different now?
Would you find a way to love me… somehow?
Somehow?
March 2010
I wish you hadn’t kissed me when you walked me to the door
I wish you hadn’t held my hand and made me want you more
I wish you hadn’t whispered all those sweet things in my ear
I wish you hadn’t stroked my hair or hugged and held me near
I wish you hadn’t smiled when I opened up my eyes
I wish your touch had not erased all your little lies
I wish there were no little things reminding me of you
I wish memories would not make me feel the way I do
I wish I didn’t know that if you called i’d run right over
I wish I could be strong and smart and give you the cold shoulder
I wish you would have treated me like just another girl
Then the nights I spent with you would feel like what they were
I wish I hadn’t fallen hard - I knew you weren’t for real
But I just can’t help the way that being with you made me feel
I wish I wouldn’t wake up sad and know I’ve dreamt of you
I wish I could get through a day and never think of you
I wish I could forget how you took away my fears
I wish I only thought of when you didn’t wipe away my tears
I wish that you had been the guy I hoped that you would be
I wish I could get over you like you got over me
I wish that I could see you for the person that you are
But the heart won’t ever listen or grant wishes on a star
And I wish that all these wishes were full of honesty
But truth be told I wish that you would just come back to me
you’ve got me flying
And maybe what we hope for the least is what we really need” —
The truth is, we hide because we want to be found. We walk away to see who will follow. We fall to see who will come pick us up. We cry to see who will wipe away our tears and we let our hearts get broken to see who will come and fix them.
Fate determines who walks into your life; you determine who you let walk out, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go
” —So fail. Be bad at things. Be embarrassed. Be afraid. Be vulnerable. Go out on a limb or two or twelve. You will fall, and it will hurt. But the farther you fall, the higher you will rise. The higher you rise, the clearer your future becomes.
Failure is a gift, welcome it.
There are people who spend their whole lives wondering how they became the people they became, how certain chances pass them by, why they didn’t take the roads less traveled. Those people aren’t you. You have front row seats to your own transformation and in transforming yourself, you might transform the world. It will be electric, and I promise it will be terrifying.
Embrace that; embrace the new person you’re becoming. This is your moment. I promise you, it is now, not two minutes from now, not tomorrow, but really now. Own that, know that deep in your bones, go to sleep every night knowing that, wake up every morning remembering that, and keep going.
” —- j says: you really dont like going out during the day do you
- h says: too hot
- j says: you'll survive
- h says: it's an added hazard if i hang out with u during the day
- h says: the heat coming from u mite dehydrate me
- j says: lol fine
- j says: any plans for the weekend?
- h says: yea
- h says: it may include u
- h says: and yoga
- h says: ;)
- h says: soz im msn flirting
- h says: and sending out innuendos
i think i dreamed you into life