Without even realising it, I took a long break from Tumblr. I still remember the first night I discovered this amazing world and, from that moment onwards… You can imagine the rest.
My frequency of posts didn’t just reflect boredom and a hint of addiction to Tumblr. It was me hiding from reality, me finding a safe place - a place where the world revolved the way I wanted it, where I met people just as weird as myself, where I could say/feel/think whatever I wanted to without being judged for it. I never realised how insecure I was in my relationship with JT until just this morning when I scrolled through numerous posts on this, as well as my private blog. I never realised how much I would rely on Tumblr to keep myself entertained, happy and sane - because he was never able to.
But here I am now. I’ve let go of the person who was holding me back and it was the best decision I have ever made in my life. I’m working in a profession that I love (despite my complaining and groaning - that’s just what I do). My family understands me more. I’ve learnt that it doesn’t matter how many friends you have - I have 3 good friends and they are all I need. What has made the biggest difference to my life is that I’ve found someone who wants to make me happy - and I want to be happy for him.
I’ll continue to blog, every now and then. But I’m proud to say that I don’t need to hide in the wonderful world of Tumblr anymore - because reality is finally treating me nicely.